Wednesday, December 28, 2016

..:Sleep Deprived:..

I am so sleep deprived; I am barely functioning. It's been six months since this little guy entered my life. The first month, sleep was better because he was sleeping 3-4 hours at a time.... then it dwindled to 3 hours, then 2 and then he starting waking up every hour. Seriously, isn't he tired too? Doesn't he want to sleep longer than 2 hours? Apparently NOT!

So I read "if naps are bad then night time sleep is bad too and vice versa." YUP! True here. Naps are anywhere between 15-30 minutes. If I am lucky, he'll sleep 60-75 minutes. Poor boy! He should be tired and cranky, right. But most of the time, he's happy and just wants to play.

I use to nurse him then put him back down in his bed. But now I'm so tired, we just co-sleep. He's finally learned that in-order to sleep with mommy, he needs to sleep on his back. And he hates being on his back. I don't mind nursing him at night... But I wish nursing meant he'd sleep!

It isn't all him. I take most of the blame. I don't like naps and I wake up early so my kids must have gotten it from me. I also refuse to let him Cry It Out or Sleep Train him. I truly believe it's a milestone that he needs to reach when he is ready. It took Emma 10 months to sleep throughout the night. I know some people are quite "lucky" and their babies sleep throughout the night as a newborn.

My little one has zero soothing skills. He had reflux as a newborn so I held him up 30 mins or so before putting him down. He also had terrible colic so I spent many night consoling and rocking him to sleep. He found his fingers a few times, but I took his fingers away when I let him nap in the baby carrier for 5 weeks. I keep reminding myself "this difficult time will pass" and he is perhaps my last baby, so YES, hug him, rock him, carry him and nurture him as much as possible. Soon I'll be sleeping 8- 10 hours a night and all these sleepless night will be a distant memory.