Monday, January 21, 2013

..:If your world suddenly became dark:..

My heart, mind and body has not been normal since last Monday. My mother has been very sick. Her MS is taking over more and more parts of her body. We are having a hard time adjusting... Even though it's been 20 something years... I suppose there is no acceptance or getting use to being sick! It's hard to see someone you love so much be in pain and hurting everyday. I know it's much harder for my dear mother.

This terrible disease has threatened my mother's only one good eye... Now she's blind. I couldn't imagine going to sleep one night and then waking up to darkness the next morning. How devastating!! It hurts... But us kids we need to be strong and be there for her. I know she is hurting much more... even more physical more than ever because she has been at the hospital for a week now.. getting tests done, needles poked and the most hardest of all.... the loneliness!

Dear God,
I know it's not her time yet... So can she just have some peace for a while. She already can't walk, MUST you take her vision too! I am having a hard time keeping the faith...  
Sincerely,
-Mo

I don't know what else to do. We have to think of all the possibilities.. If her vision is not spared, what are our options? My mother is going to need more care. These are the type of conversations my siblings and I will need to have. Who will have to give up their job/career?

I am very thankful that I have such great siblings who all care about my mother just as much as I do. They are so very strong and we all have spent a great number of resources and time with her.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

..:Operation V Day 2:...

             Operation V started yesterday, Jan 2, and it will go until Feb 15th, that is roughly about 45 days.
V stands for two things; Vegas and V-shape! 
             Yes, I am normal.. I ate alot during the holidays. Even though I work-out nearly  everyday, that doesn't matter much when you are consuming 1500+ calories a days. They say "What you eat (your diet) is 80%, and your workout is 20% of weight gain/ weight loss."  I love my chocolates, sweets and noodles! My goal is to loose the holiday weight, which is less than 5 lbs... tone up my belly. I can't wait to see my small little 1-2 pack come back in.

             You might think it's ridiculous; but it's self-improvement for my mind, body and soul to know I can accomplish this... So I have set up a reward for myself. If I feel like I met my goal by Feb 12, I am buying myself the most  beautiful dress to wear for Vegas! If I fail, I will be feeling crummy and will have to wear a dress I already have...
             To make things easier... I might have to ban FAST FOOD, even Culver's, for a while. Although I am not a regular at fast food places... I do give in every once and a long while! I will have to limit my intake of desserts, chocolate, sweets and noodles ----> my favorite foods. I will have to indulge in lots of protein and fruits! :)
             What I ate today.... hmmmm.. I personally think I ate alot!! Blah for the second day.
-1 bbq quarter leg  -1 big salad -2 bananas  -1 milk -lots of cherry tomatoes - chicken thigh stirfry  -green beans  -green tea  -2 fried eggs  -tamarind
             The first few days are the hardest... I  say this because I am going from 2000 cals to 1200 ish cals. Our body needs to adjust to the change!