.:Me Fast-Forward:.

Teaching is my passion, academics are my friends, children are my audience
Each day filled with love, happiness, smiles and laughter;

Games to learn and games to teach
My nights will consist of dishes of thit-kho,

beef stir-fry, rice, chilli peppers and noodles

Everyday is a gift from God,

Everyday I count my blessings

I want to love like crazy, eat too much,

laugh the loudest, cry like a baby, dance like moneys,

and live life like no other has

.:Seems like everybody knows but nobody really knows:.

I thought I knew too

I heard all the opinions and it slowly ate me away
Don't wear your heart on your sleeve but I have never known other parts
My social world slaps me to conform and mold
Expectations scream and dreams roared on
Through the years I've transformed into a ridged monster
I did it all, the highs, the lows, the journeys with no endings

Now comes the daily doses of I told you so's
I hate this part the most because it lingers and i don't know where to throw them
Such feelings have gone into hiding, it's not a book I can just read to you
This road seems so familiar, like I've been here before, yet so far apart
Tell me what to do and say so I can play my life right
Waiting to hear my next steps

Speak to me why perfection cries, why souls search and walks this earth
Because right now I can think of a billion sins to loose my balance in this world
What is yesterday when they never heal
When did strength become too painful to secure

Such gibberish only has meaning when all is empty and even night has gone asleep
If perfection carries us so far but flaws will overthrow, why reach our hands out
They're are what seems to disturb the heart.

If perfection still bleeds, I'll return such fate happily
If perfection is how I'm feeling right now, take away this luck
I think my diagnosis was a shattered-heart.